Posted on Mar 1st, 2007
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P'SAL
Hey there! Long time no blog! What's been goin' on? Me, I've been moving. Moving, and setting up my new place in downtown Boulder, a strong-armed stone's throw from the veritable eastern edge of the Rocky Mountains. See, this is the first time I've lived with other people in such a conscious manner: we're here to set up a practice space, plain and simple. A place for living, and practice. A place for eating, and practice. A place for sleeping, and practice. What is practice? See above.
It's been nice to slow down after the hectic Denver lifestyle, with it's buses, commuting, tall towers and shopping galleries galore. Boulder has shopping, but importantly, it has a sense of stillness, and proximity to the more eternal, unchanging truths of the natural world. See those heaps of rock, those snowflakes gathered in the seams between geological shifts? Those find no home in citified living. I'm not saying I'm dropping my urbanihipster ways to start growing my own food, but I am... slowing down. Sitting more. Sleeping more. Developing routines. Civilizing my passions. Slowing down.
Oh, and cleaning the bathroom. Every Sunday.
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Posted on Mar 29th, 2007
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P'SAL
There must be some way out of here. I am not a joker or a thief.
I rely on chain stores and franchises (current faves: Vic's Coffee, Noodles & Company, Chipotle, Borders) because they bring reliability and structure to an otherwise chaotic life. I go to bed midnight-ish and wake up at 8-ish for those very same reasons. But it's not enough.
There is too much confusion. Relief: none. Relief in small moments, relief in cups of java and moments on stage and drinks with friends and long conversations with loved ones. But still.
None of the True Relief that a Life's Purpose provides. None of the True Relief that commitment to One Single Practice would provide.
I'm not excited. I know life is but a joke. Just look at the snow. In late March. In Boulder. ON Boulder.
I am 30: the hour is quite late. I have not the luxury for false talk. Cue guitar solo.
...
There's a cold, cold distance, somewhere on the liminal edge of my consciousness, a place where the future and the past conspire to make hay with my present. A surprise car payment. A surprise tax leveed. A surprise plane ticket to buy. A surprise memory causing me to cry. A surprise innovation (did I see YouTube coming 2 years ago? Fuck no).
That goddamn wildcat. A mountain lion, growling. Two riders -- bicyclists probably -- approaching from the lunar marshes. Wind, whipping down, howling all around, beating against the sheets of my bed.
I'm on the watchtower; I don't see a thing.
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Posted on Mar 30th, 2007
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P'SAL
One of my open mic pieces, a little ditty meant to open up the chakras (assuming they exist), tap into my hip-hop past, and give a shout-out to robo-culture....
ACTIVATION
Vowel sounds activate
Vowel sounds activate
Vowel sounds activate
(Fundamental vocals units now online)
A for the plans that I see in my brain
E for the speech that I speak out loud
I for the feelings inside for all of you
O for the gut that tells me what to do
U for the funk and the uh uh uh
But every time I open up I get shut down
My brain gets lost in thoughts that it cannot ground
My words create conflict, enemies, and fans
My heart is stuck on empathy for everyone that's sad
My stomach gets sick, my balls just want to dance
Everytime I activate they stop my advance
So I drop the vowel sounds
Into my hands
And with an A-E-I-O-U
fight back
Thoughts confusing me -- push that
Words choking me -- slap that
Empathy stopping me -- hit that
Hunger confusing me -- strike that
Lust diffusing me -- punch that
Now
A is for the plans that I need to see
E for the things that I mean to speak
I for the feelings that are proper to me
O for the juice that my body needs
U for the funk and the uh uh uh
Freed by the fundamental sounds of the world
Vowels activated, radiating like pearls
Every word rhyming with the breathing inside
Every deed powered by the source of my spine.
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